It feels good and weird to be writing a post without thinking of all the work I have to do. I am happy to say I’m done with my first year of the four years, thank GOD!
I don’t even know how to begin sharing the experience but let me just say I felt like I was in a fight with a lion and won. . . dramatic but Hell yea I felt that way, boy was it GOOD.
A couple of days ago, I got my grades back and for the first time all year, I felt like all of the work I had been putting in since August finally paid off, Thank God again!
I learned so many lessons this past year and just thought I should share a few with y’all:
I learned to work on being a better me as opposed to being better than others. This was something that I think took the whole of my first year to live with. I’m about to share something a few people know. From my school days in Nigeria up to college in Austin I was always in the top 3 in my class or among the best in my class. I never struggled with school. As a matter of fact I loved school because I had always been good at it and it makes sense to feel that I would be able to cruise through med school easy, right? NOPE, NEGATIVE, SLAP on my face. LOL! I laugh at myself because I remember telling all my friends who were in school(I took a year off) how much I wanted to be doing work and once it started I was missing all my 12 hour sleep days ugh. Anyways, I struggled with getting the worst grades I’ve ever gotten in my whole life. I passed my classes but I felt like I wasn’t doing well, it got to a point where all I wanted to do was just wake up and be a physician. After several beat downs and over thinking I decided to try to be a better “Tobi” as opposed to being better than everyone and slowly the grades got better and I am so happy that after all the changes, sleepless nights, screwed up sleep patterns and perseverance, I think I’ve figured it out. Took a whole year but I’m grateful and learned so much along the way.
I learned to never be too busy for life. This stuff is a lot of work however, it could all end at anytime and I don’t want to live knowing I didn’t spend enough time with the people that I love. I remember one night skyping with my cousin in the UK for 6 hours even though I needed to stream 2 lectures and study them :/ however if I didn’t take that time out to catch up with her I would have lost something somehow. I made it a point to talk to my friends and family as frequently as possible because truth be told I need people to celebrate with me after all this work is done and that won’t happen if I ditch everyone(I ain’t using y’all though, I need all the support!!!)
I discovered myself in a new way. I started this blog to document discovering who I am and the past year has involved just that. Although I didn’t go on as many adventures as I would have loved to, I realized that everything that I have been doing the past year gave me joy in some way. Regardless of how it hurt to study, once it was underway and I was into it, I enjoyed every bit of it and sometimes found myself being passionate about the weirdest stuff :s LOL I guess that’s why I’m doing this.
So as I take my short 1 month vacation, wahhhhhh:’(, I’m reminded of this phrase one of my teacher’s used to say : “the higher you go, the hotter it becomes” like is it really hot up in the clouds??? because I thought it was cool up there and don’t people love being in the clouds???
Am I looking forward to my second year? Yes, because it means I’m one more year closer to achieving my goal and No because it’s most definitely not going to be easy but hey! I’m up for the challenge right? :)
So what am I gonna do before then? Have the time of my life!!! Adventures and fun until school starts again!!
Have an awesome weekend ahead
love Tobs <3
I learned a very valuable skill this year too, making balloon animals! I’m a pro y’all. Check out some pics :